MollyB.

Current events of high school…..-___-

That awesome moment when your best friends make the worst mistakes! I have these friends we’ll just call brendon? Philippe? And francis?(interesting pick of names right? I thought so too.) last week I was sick and they were all hanging out with hmmm we’ll call it Freddie. Who by the way is VERY immature! Brendon and philippe decided it would be funny to put alcohol in francis’s drink, who doesn’t do that kind of thing, and not tell her! (not funny btw) after she took a sip they told her, so she got mad and left. While she was leaving Freddie the immature one says I can’t believe y’all did that to her. Now the other two are saying they were just kidding (yeah right)! I’m not sure how much longer I can just pretend like they’re not doing anything wrong. I wish I could just tell them how stupid they’re being! The thing is they have been my best friends for a long time and I don’t understand why they have just started acting this way. Last year if one of their friends had done that they would have told them how stupid they were and all the things that could happen because of drinking and partying. So please tell me whats changed?! Could you not stand being the one who people look up to or are you seriously giving into this crap?! I wish I could just yell and scream at them but they don’t even know I know they did that. I know I shouldn’t hang out with them anymore cause of what they have become but it’s hard to leave a friendship with someone you love especially when you’re not sure if they have any other friends left to be a good influence. I miss how it used to be. I miss being talk about whatever and not have to worry about it getting out. I miss being able to get away from drama when I’m with them. I miss there not being drama in our circle. What happened? What happened to the late night parties just us (with no drinking)? What happened to the old them? Am I the only one who hasn’t changed or am I the only one that has changed? What ever changed I want it to change back to the way it was in the seventh grade. Back when everything was great. When everyone was friends with everyone. When the only worries we had were did I study for today’s spelling test? Or I hope I don’t lose my voice from all this laughing I hope I don’t throw up! Or did I remember everything I need for athletics? What happened to those days? What happened to everyone just being happy? Seventh grade seriously was the best year ever! Everyone agrees and everyone says the same when people ask why. Everyone was happy and everyone was friends. So why can’t we make it that way now. People say its because people aren’t that mature. So we all agree that we could do it in seventh but now that we’re in high school we’re not mature enough? Doesn’t that mean we have down graded on our maturity level and that seventh graders are MORE mature than ninth graders. If you don’t want to admit that then change things. I know I don’t want to admit that but its the truth. And I’m facing the facts. I’m told it only takes one person to change the world so this is me speaking out and saying make the change!

Lord, my strength and my fortress,
my refuge in time of distress,
to you the nations will come
from the ends of the earth and say,
“Our ancestors possessed nothing but false gods,
worthless idols that did them no good. (Jeremiah 16:19 NIV)

But I will sing of your strength,
in the morning I will sing of your love;
for you are my fortress,
my refuge in times of trouble. (Psalm 59:16 NIV)

God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble. (Psalm 46:1 NIV)

All of these verses have helped me this morning to remember that God is always there to help me. He is my ever present help in time of need. I thank God for giving me Kate who is truly my only friend who will honestly tell me the truth about how I’m acting or how I’m treating someone. I love that she is so dependent on God and so concentrated on what is righteous and not on unrighteousness. I thank God for giving me my family who keeps grounded and in a positive relationship with God! But most of all I’m thankful for God and his glory! One day every knee will bow and ever tongue confess that he is lord! Thank you God!!!!

Heyy:)

Well its been like forever sense i’ve been on here and i was reading me sisters tumblr and her a little of her new blog and decided that i would start this up again. i never really did much on here because i never really new what to do, but as i sat here thinking i realized this could be a really good way to help me keep up with my daily Bible reading! Which is really exciting for me because every year i decide I’m going to read the whole Bible but when school starts up i loose touch.

This year I started high school(which i am currently hating). I always thought well im never going to let peer pressure suck me in but i guess no one else made that decision. It’s been really hard loosing friends over stupid mistakes. There only one friend who has been by side one hundred percent of the time and that’s my cousin, kate. You’ll probably see her name mentioned numerous times thought this journey. She’s my only friend who hasn’t fallen into the trap of drugs, sex, or just plane left me behind. Don’t get me wrong not all my friends have done those things but it feels like whole lot of them have.

I used to be really good friends with a girl who we”ll call Sally. She and I had like four classes together in the sixth grade and we were really good friends. She would make me these little picture, bookmarks, name tags, etc. and she made me laugh. Then seventh grade came around and she started hanging out with other people which is fine but it hurt because they were hurting her. She would tell me things everyday that people would make up about her or something a boy said to her that they shouldn’t have. Then when 8th grade started she just didn’t talk to me. i didn’t know if she was okay i didn’t know if her boyfriend was treating her right(which he wasn’t). She didn’t deserve friends like that but i guess that was her decision. She had become a girl i couldn’t be around. She’s still super nice and funny but she doesn’t make the best decisions and i wish i could change it but all i can do is wait and pray.

i have another friend whom i love but can’t trust as well i used to. i always thought she would be by my side but she left me out of important parts of our lives and now i don’t know, i’m still trying to build my trust up for her again.

 so as you can see it’s been hard high schools tough and i can’t make it through without God by my side and in my heart and on my mind 24/7. so here it goes! I will pray to God every night and day that he will help me through it. I will pray to God every night that i will make more friends who will always be there. I will pray every night that it will get better. I will pray ever night that my heart won’t hurt anymore. I will pray to God every night that his light would shine through me so that i could be an example. I will pray to God every night that he will use me in miraculous ways. I will pray every night that i wont forget who he is. I will pray every night that he will help me not to forget the good days. and will thank God for giving me kate who is always there for me. i will thank God for giving me Brittany(my sister) who i can always talk  to about everything. I will pray to God for giving me my Mom who helps me out of all my hardships. I will thank God for giving me my Dad who is the only man i need. I will pray to god for giving me kyle(my brother) who holds me accountable and helps me learn to be a better person everyday. And most importantly i will thank God for sending his one and only son to die on the cross and save me from my sins, so that i don’t have to worry when i make mistakes. Thank you God for loving me no matter what. Thank you God for telling me I’m beautiful. Thank you God for never leaving me. Thank you God for loving me always. I will love you always! Amen!     

I hate this more than anything right now.

brittanyyb:

I woke up throwing up. My grandpa’s in the hospital. I’m not with the person that I love the most and no matter how hard I try, I can’t stop thinking about him. It’s my other grandpa’s birthday and I don’t think I can go with everyone to eat since I’m sick. And I have work tomorrow.

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I just want everything to be better.