MollyB.

Heyy:)

Well its been like forever sense i’ve been on here and i was reading me sisters tumblr and her a little of her new blog and decided that i would start this up again. i never really did much on here because i never really new what to do, but as i sat here thinking i realized this could be a really good way to help me keep up with my daily Bible reading! Which is really exciting for me because every year i decide I’m going to read the whole Bible but when school starts up i loose touch.

This year I started high school(which i am currently hating). I always thought well im never going to let peer pressure suck me in but i guess no one else made that decision. It’s been really hard loosing friends over stupid mistakes. There only one friend who has been by side one hundred percent of the time and that’s my cousin, kate. You’ll probably see her name mentioned numerous times thought this journey. She’s my only friend who hasn’t fallen into the trap of drugs, sex, or just plane left me behind. Don’t get me wrong not all my friends have done those things but it feels like whole lot of them have.

I used to be really good friends with a girl who we”ll call Sally. She and I had like four classes together in the sixth grade and we were really good friends. She would make me these little picture, bookmarks, name tags, etc. and she made me laugh. Then seventh grade came around and she started hanging out with other people which is fine but it hurt because they were hurting her. She would tell me things everyday that people would make up about her or something a boy said to her that they shouldn’t have. Then when 8th grade started she just didn’t talk to me. i didn’t know if she was okay i didn’t know if her boyfriend was treating her right(which he wasn’t). She didn’t deserve friends like that but i guess that was her decision. She had become a girl i couldn’t be around. She’s still super nice and funny but she doesn’t make the best decisions and i wish i could change it but all i can do is wait and pray.

i have another friend whom i love but can’t trust as well i used to. i always thought she would be by my side but she left me out of important parts of our lives and now i don’t know, i’m still trying to build my trust up for her again.

 so as you can see it’s been hard high schools tough and i can’t make it through without God by my side and in my heart and on my mind 24/7. so here it goes! I will pray to God every night and day that he will help me through it. I will pray to God every night that i will make more friends who will always be there. I will pray every night that it will get better. I will pray ever night that my heart won’t hurt anymore. I will pray to God every night that his light would shine through me so that i could be an example. I will pray to God every night that he will use me in miraculous ways. I will pray every night that i wont forget who he is. I will pray every night that he will help me not to forget the good days. and will thank God for giving me kate who is always there for me. i will thank God for giving me Brittany(my sister) who i can always talk  to about everything. I will pray to God for giving me my Mom who helps me out of all my hardships. I will thank God for giving me my Dad who is the only man i need. I will pray to god for giving me kyle(my brother) who holds me accountable and helps me learn to be a better person everyday. And most importantly i will thank God for sending his one and only son to die on the cross and save me from my sins, so that i don’t have to worry when i make mistakes. Thank you God for loving me no matter what. Thank you God for telling me I’m beautiful. Thank you God for never leaving me. Thank you God for loving me always. I will love you always! Amen!